snap the fuck out of it

Sigh...

I'm refusing to study for neuro... I really shouldn't be rebelling against this task... I mean, what will Flo think? I wish I could just sink away from all my responsibilities for awhile. And by a while, I don't mean a weekend. A year would be nice. Hiking in Africa, working with children with cleft palates... teaching english in Japan, scuba diving in New Guinea, meeting a french woman to share a bit of my life with...

I should'nt be complaining, I have nothing to complain about really. The worst part of my life is 465 mies away and not even on speaking terms. That's good. I have a fucking awesome life here. I love my program (minus the homework, obviously), I love my job, I love my friends, I love my girlfriend. Why can't I just kick back and enjoy it all? Enjoy this Bailey!

This sadness is really frustrating. I feel like if I could just cry, that that would make me feel so much better. Guh, how I long for a good cry. A sob... oh my my, a sob sounds great.

Instead I just stare numbly at my neurolingusitics study guides that Michele kindly gave to me. Even with my study time cut in half, I can't do it. Haha, and that Simpler Times in the fridge is lookin' real real good. Maybe if I get drunk, I'll be more motivated to study..? "Oh little Bailey..."

I feel like the weather today is very parallel to my emotional state.

Over it. Sadness, please go away, or at least allow yourself to manifest into tears so I can release and be gone with you. Thanks.

At least I still have a sense of humor and a wet vagina.